“Intro.”

1st Goal Statement:  I believe the purpose of my introduction is to clearly define which way my paper is heading.  It will help me get a better grasp on the information I have.  My purpose for the reader is to grab their attention right off the bat so they will continue to keep reading my paper.  Nobody ever wants to read a boring paper and I hope mine can interest them.  This is different from all the other sections of the paper in that it is what interests everybody to my ideas.  This is how I will get people to read my paper; from this introduction.  My goals for this paper are to be able to get my point across.  That we all do have an inner-self waiting to be found.  It may just be growing up and maturing but think about ourselves as adolescents to what we are now.  It is an amazing concept.  A journey of self-discovery through trial and error.  My intended audience is my peers around me along with anybody who has ever felt lost when first entering college and dealing with the pressures of the world around us.  Just breathe…

I must remember to not beat myself up over this because it truly is MY SHITTY FIRST DRAFT:

Brock Kawana

Professor Harrison

English 202

2 March 2010

Finding Myself:

Through Trial and Error with My Own Conscious Being

 

            “Brock, I can see that you have found the man that you are going to become and that is wonderful.”

I consider my Grandfather to be one of the wisest persons that I know throughout my short nineteen years on this earth.  He always has words of wisdom whether it is through a letter he wrote, a prayer card or like he did in that quote by just speaking to him personally. 

When I went to go see him this year it was a normal fall day, one of the days before Thanksgiving where I would begin preparing my stomach for a feast, we had our normal discussions of college, NFL football and if I had any new girlfriends.  Then when he said the above quote to me after not seeing each other face to face for about a year or so; it got me thinking, “How does one find themselves?”  

My questioning of finding my own true selves started before I even entered college.  In my own experience high school seems to be the “bubble” years of life.  When I say bubble I am implying that it is not a real way to live but more of a conventionality to their liking.  As a student in high school I was trapped in a building for seven hours a day with teachers barking commands, people changing themselves to fit in, ignorant students and people who were too high to function and then set free into my real life outside of school to do whatever I please. Thus never retaining any of the information they taught me because it never captured my attention.  It seemed that everything in high school was formatted straight from a book.  This entailed us to be trained in their ways to write, speak, dress and learn.

All the way through my adolescence I was taught to not judge a book by its cover yet when it came to human groups there always seems to be labels already telling me who was who.  Labels are what drive us apart as human beings (Ginsberg).  This is what makes us misinterpret how to find ourselves.  The main component is to be in touch with the ones around us because we surround ourselves with people we enjoy and thus bring out characteristics in ourselves.     

“We can only get to know ourselves while we are conscious and aware, therefore we must use all our facilities to understand ourselves. Once we are able to change ourselves by understanding ourselves, we become extremely precious to others, and then magically, all other beings become precious as well (Rock).”

Once I had entered college all of that was thrown out the window and I created my own re-birth into life.   I was away from my family for the first time for a long period of time.  I had none of my friends from home with me that would always be there; I was alone.  It was as if I was just dropped into this whole new world.  I started to realize I was not mature enough for this lifestyle.  I began to party every day of the week because I had nothing better to do.  My life began to crumble around me slowly at first then rapidly as I fell into the belly of the whale.  This is where I took the time to analyze my life and write it all down: how I felt, where I thought my life was going and if I could truly become a success measured in my own terms in life.  It is an amazing experience looking at your-self from an outsider’s perspective.  This is where I began my self-discovery journey in which I found out who Brock Kawana truly was.

Works Cited

Ginsberg, Scott “Life Isn’t About Finding Yourself, It’s About Creating Yourself.” Life Isn’t About Finding Yourself, It’s About Creating Yourself. 3 Jan. 2006 EzineArticles.com. 17 Feb. 2010

Raymond Rock, E. “How to Find Yourself (How to Look Within).” How to Find Yourself (How to Look Within). 21 Mar. 2008 EzineArticles.com. 17 Feb. 2010

<http://ezinearticles.com/?How-­to-­Find-­Yourself-­(How-­to-­Look-­Within)&id=1060110>.

End Goal Statement:

The purpose of this intro was to inform the reader of my life so far in my conclusion in finding myself thus and how it affected the world.  I hope to keep the reader informed and pay attention still and hopefully question and learn for themselves.  I want my target audience to still be people who will want to learn from me and my research I gathered.